true right now

I am not sure if that is you waking up or someone getting home

I type quietly
and hide the cats

apology
apology in advance
for the mess
I have not cleaned

I am hiding from you right now
in the room next to you
telling myself that
if this is not okay

if I cannot work while you sleep

then this will never work

but i promise you

I will not sleep with you tonight
out of respect
and if I scare you
by staying up
and making you feel lonely in a weird place
then I am sorry

I am scary

that will not end